Krista Niittymäki | 27 Jan 2004 17:38
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TV Guide - Interview With the Vampire


Interview With the Vampire


David Boreanaz

When Buffy the Vampire Slayer creator Joss Whedon decided to hook up the show's heroine with a 245-year-old vampire with a soul, he didn't have high expectations. "I thought people would be like, 'That's so cheesy,'" he says. Instead, the chemistry between Sarah Michelle Gellar and David Boreanaz turned the 1997 pairing into one of TV's great star-crossed romances and transformed the unknown Boreanaz into a heartthrob and, in 1999, the star of his own WB spin-off, Angel.

This week, the drama celebrates a milestone — its 100th episode — with an epic installment that marks the return of original cast member Cordelia (Charisma Carpenter) in all her wisecracking glory. "She really is the person to say [to Angel], 'I was here when you started and look where you are now,'" Whedon says. Recently, Boreanaz and the man he affectionately calls "Boss" met up on Angel's Los Angeles set to talk about branching out from Buffy. TVG: David, what was your reaction to the idea of having your own show?
Boreanaz: I'm very fortunate. I mean, to give me my own series — a character like this [who] is so diverse, so old. There's so much to him. When I read the breakdown for the character, it was something like, "245-year-old vampire with a conscience. If you knock him down, he'll get back up like Joe Louis." The Joe Louis line stuck with me.

TVG: Joss, you've said if you had to compare Angel to a superhero, it would be Batman. Is that how you always envisioned him?
Whedon: He does have the Batman thing of "I am all alone... with my 12 sidekicks." There are, like, 48 guys with keys to the Batcave. But, and I think this is a human truth, you are still alone. You can be alone in a crowd of people who love you. That is our curse. And that's why I think vampires as a concept register.

TVG: In 2001, Buffy moved to UPN but Angel stayed on the WB. Did you worry that splitting the shows up would hurt Angel?
Whedon: In terms of Angel I was pleased, just because it was time for people to realize that it stood on its own.

TVG: It must've been hard, though, to continue to deal with the WB after such nasty negotiations over Buffy.
Whedon: Yeah. This was a negotiation where both [then-20th Century Fox chairman] Sandy Grushow and [WB chairman] Jamie Kellner went at each other. And when elephants fight, mice get trampled. It was really just about money.

TVG: David, what did you think the first time you heard about the story line in which Angel's infant son, Connor, would age into a teenager within a few episodes?
Boreanaz: It's nuts, man. But when Vincent [Kartheiser, who played Connor] came on, I really enjoyed working with him. But now nobody remembers Connor [on the show] except me.
Whedon: It's gonna come into play again. Assuming Vincent's available.

TVG: Were you shocked at how resistant fans were when you put Angel and Cordelia together?
Whedon: "Resistant" isn't the word. They were chasing us through the streets with torches. They hated the idea. The Buffy-Angel [romance] has lingered.
Boreanaz: The Buffy-Angel connection has got to win out [in the end]. They're perfect together. — Shawna Malcom

For more on Angel's 100th epsiode, pick up this week's issue of TV Guide magazine on newsstands now. Or head to the TV Guide Store to buy this week's Angel cover along with the May 2003 Buffy and Angel classic cover.



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Krista Niittymäki | 27 Jan 2004 16:08
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Sci Fi: Interview - At 100 (episodes), Angel bites into a new future while remembering the past

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At 100 (episodes), Angel bites into a new future while remembering the past

he WB's vampire series Angel will celebrate its 100th episode, "You're Welcome," on Feb. 4, marking the return of onetime series regular Charisma Carpenter, and affording cast and crew a chance to reflect on the show's five-year journey through the underbelly of supernatural Los Angeles.

Here's how the network describes the milestone episode: "Cordelia (Carpenter) mysteriously awakens from her coma and is shocked to discover that instead of fighting against the evil law firm, Wolfram & Hart, Angel (David Boreanaz) and the group are now running it. Realizing that Angel has lost his conviction to be a hero, Cordelia gives him the information and support he needs to get back on track. Meanwhile, while Angel has security keeping an eye on Eve (Sarah Thompson), her partner Lindsay (returning guest star Christian Kane) prepares to bring about Angel's demise."

On Dec. 4 last year, the cast and crew gathered on Stage 5 at Paramount Pictures, home of the massive Wolfram & Hart set, to blow out the candles on a white-and-blood-red cake with the inscription "Angel 100." Guests included Joss Whedon, who co-created the Buffy the Vampire Slayer spinoff with David Greenwalt, and stars Boreanaz, James Marsters, Alexis Denisof, J. August Richards, Amy Acker, Andy Hallett, Mercedes McNab, Sarah Thompson and Kane, who returns after a lengthy hiatus to reprise the character of ousted evil Wolfram & Hart lawyer Lindsay McDonald.

The season has also seen a dramatic shift in tone, to more humorous and stand-alone episodes after last year's epic apocalypse story arc. And, of course, the introduction of Marster's Spike from the now-ended Buffy has stirred things up for Team Angel.

The cast and crew took a moment to speak with Science Fiction Weekly about Angel's long journey and its future. The following comments have been compiled from interviews on the day of the 100th-episode party and The WB's subsequent winter press tour in Hollywood.


David Boreanaz, you just directed your first episode [Jan. 21's "Soul Purpose"]. Can you talk about the experience?

Boreanaz: I came in with a really strong game plan as far as what I wanted to do, looking at the script and some ideas. I came in with some really strong ideas and some strong visuals that I wanted to do, and I had a big ... meeting with [executive producer] Jeff Bell, and a lot of the ideas I wanted to do kind of got, not squashed, but just toned down a bit, because I had to remind myself that I am shooting an Angel show and not this crazy, cinematic, swooping thing.

As a director, you have a formula that you're shooting, and that formula has to stay true to the storyline and to the Angel kind of motif. So that was challenging to kind of keep that. So my shots were really determined upon the scenes. I had a lot of ... interior flashbacks of my mind, and was it a dream? Was it not a dream? And I had a great time doing it. Once I got rolling with it, though, I found that my best opportunities came after I rehearsed, and they were messing around with the camera. I'd see the monitor, I'd come up with a different shot. And that's how it kind of came to be for me, and I kind of shot off the cuff a lot towards the end as I got more comfortable with it, and that was great.


How did you keep the acting part separate from the directing part?

Boreanaz: It's pretty crazy, yeah. You do your work, and there were moments when I was acting in it, and I had the [assistant director] call action or I would look at a little television monitor while I was setting the shot and rehearsing. So you're mind's really all over the place. But I enjoy working like that. The more that's going on, the better for me creatively.


Do you want to do more directing?

Boreanaz: I don't know. Yeah, I think so. Again, you're directing your prescription. You're directing a prescription that is for an already prescribed show. You have your limitations. You can put your mark on it, and I feel like I did that with this show that I directed. But then again, I'm not the show runner. I don't get the final cut. I will have a director's cut, and if anybody would like to see, it will be much longer. So that's the way it is. That's just what happens.


This season, things seem to have gotten a lot lighter. Is that true, and how long will that last?

Boreanaz: I don't know. I think that we take each episode as they come, and I know the next four or five episodes coming out are really interesting and unique to a series that's taken a big turn and is only going upwards. So I'm very confident that the storylines will remain intact as far as the small plot lines are concerned, with Spike and myself and what's going to happen with Fred [Acker] and what's going to happen to J [who plays Gunn]. And I think that all kind of unfolds. So we're just letting it ride out. It'll be light, but it'll get dark, too. I think right now we're at a good place.


There's been no word yet on whether the network will pick up Angel for season six. What's your sense of whether the show will be picked up for another year?

Boreanaz: I don't know. I prescribe myself season to season, like I've always done. And once I hear word of that, that's great, and we'll see what happens this year.


You're not tired of the character? You've been doing this for a long time [eight years, counting his appearances in Buffy].

Boreanaz: For the show it's been a great five seasons and now ending a fifth season of the show. And I've loved it. I've loved everything about the character, and if the show were to go away, I would be very happy and pleased with where the character is right now. He's very challenging. He still always makes it interesting. The writers always make it interesting for me to play him, and, God, he's 250-something years old, so I don't have to worry about backstory with him.


Can you talk about Joss' being more heavily involved in the show this year? [In previous years, Whedon has found himself working on as many as three series at once, including Buffy, Angel and Firefly, as well as developing other projects.]

Boreanaz: Joss has been involved in the show since the inception of it, and people always ask me that question, and I feel as though his involvement has always been 120 percent every year. I don't think it's been either-or. I think that because he had a lot going on last year with Firefly and Buffy and this show, people are like, "Well, he's now going to have much more attention." But to me that's just bulls--t. I think that the type of artist that he is, and he comes up with an idea, he wants to see that come to fruition. That's ... the type of artist that he is, and I respect him highly for that, and that's what's been so great working with Joss. That he doesn't just say, "Well, I'm doing this, so forget about your show." I feel like he's always been there, so I don't see any difference.


Joss Whedon, Sarah Michelle Gellar (Buffy) won't be making an appearance this season on Angel, even if it is the last year?

Whedon: Sarah last year said that she would be interested in coming on the show. And then this year, she ... said that it felt too soon. And that's something that I actually understand. It's very difficult when you throw something off that's sort of taken over your life and your public persona for years and years and years, and you go off, it's very difficult to just sort of say, "OK, I'm going to throw that back on on somebody else's show and dive in again." And I think that's probably what happened.

I don't know that it's a never. ... It was more just like, "Now's not the time." And as writers, we have to go to our own characters and care more about that. And so it isn't ... bad, I don't think. You know, I mean, obviously I would love to see her on the show, and she's welcome anytime she decides she is ready. But I don't know if that will happen, and with a cast like that, it's not my first priority.


With the guest appearance of Tom Lenk [Andrew], you revisited Slayer lore in the Jan. 28 episode "Damage."

Whedon: Yeah. So we wanted somebody from Sunnydale on the show, and we thought Andrew would be the person most likely to annoy everybody on Angel.


Can you talk about Charisma's return to the show?

Whedon: It's been 100 episodes. She was there at the beginning. [It's a chance to ask] where are we now? Have we gotten better? Have we gotten worse? To take stock, that's really what a 100th episode is for. To go back and say, here was the mission statement. If we made a hundred of these, there's a reason we were talking about this. So let's talk about it some more.


Is Connor [Vincent Kartheiser] coming back?

Whedon: We hope so. We haven't made a deal or anything. We don't know his schedule, but we definitely have a storyline.


That would be for this season?

Whedon: Yeah.


You have mentioned if the show doesn't get picked up, this season will wrap up the series as well as the season.

Whedon: Yeah, that's what I usually do, and I didn't do it last year, because I didn't know we were in danger of getting canceled. And I didn't do it the year before, because I knew we weren't going to be. But usually, my philosophy has always been, do an episode that ties up everything, but opens up some other things. And this season is no different. It's very much a good way to go out, and a good way to start a completely new season.


Will it be as dramatic a change as it was last year?

Whedon: Well, I don't know if we can afford a whole new set, but they will definitely not be living the way they're living now.


At one point, you had a bunch of Buffy stuff cooking. There was a BBC show based on Giles' character and an animated show. Are any of those going to happen now?

Whedon: Every now and then we get a nibble on the animated show. I'm very leery of it, because I would want it to be wonderful. I don't have the talent pool that I had back then, or the time. And it's hard to get the kind of money it takes to make really good animation. So I'm not sure how that'll work out. The Giles thing I would love to do; again, that's just a question of time.


James Marsters, the presence of Spike seems to have invigorated the show. Did you have any idea of the phenomenon your character would become?

Marsters: I still am resistant to think about that, because I think that in general, celebrity will destroy your soul. And if you concentrate too much on how popular you are or what the effect is out there, it just trips with your head. And I contemplated it a little too deeply one season, and it really was too trippy. And ... I'm so appreciative of it. It's just wonderful. But what's important is really what I do today. And if I suck or if I don't suck. Because sometimes you suck. Like today, I had a fight scene that sucked. Seriously, it sucked.


What's going to happen to Spike in this season of the show?

Marsters: Oh, man, I gave up trying to second-guess these writers so long ago. They go exactly the opposite direction. We just did a big fight between Angel and Spike, right? I would have bet ... my guitar on the fact that Angel was going to win that fight. I was like, "There's no other way you can do it." Of course. Why would you do it the other way? And what they've done is open up Angel for a whole new arc of self-doubt and a whole new reason to try to redeem yourself beyond the reward. Genius. So I have no idea.

What I do know is that there seems to be a lot more dramatic potential between Angel and Spike than I once realized. When Joss wanted to bring me over to the show, I thought, "Well, it will be cool. I'll make Angel's life hard like I made Buffy's life hard. That would be fun." But what I'm discovering, this is also interesting, things like Spike never bought that Angel was reformed. When he first, he was like, "Bulls--t. You're still going to go kill people. I don't buy that for a second." And ... it doesn't register with Angel now that Spike has gotten his soul and is reformed. He does not see himself in Spike at all. And I think that's because Angel has seen Spike do such horrendous evil that he just cannot believe that you can come back from that, and Spike doesn't believe that Angel could come back from what he did. Even though they're hoping to come back from doing what they've done. It's a really wonderful doppelganger for [everything].


There's a perception that you're taking over the show from David. And it seems like the writers have picked up on the perception of tension between you two to create this tension between the characters.

Marsters: Well, yeah, but that was in there from the very first, from [the Buffy episode] "School Hard" [in which Spike first appeared]. ... And the whole Drusilla thing, of [Angel's] glomming onto Drusilla, that was already stuff that we'd done before. .. I think because there's tension between the characters is why this character and not another one from Buffy came over to the show. But yeah, between David and me functionally, there are no sparks at all. I am in awe of this guy. I'm serious. He's the same guy that I met a long time ago filming Buffy, this guy that broke a f--king two-by-four with his head. Right? ... He was doing a gag where they had a wire in his back, and it went a little wrong, these things happen. It's long hours. He went through with his head and broke it, and he's bleeding. And he's like, "[It's] nothing, nothing." He's hiding the blood, and he said, "Let's just go." He just wanted to get the next take. He's the same guy.

He directed a show this year, and he's so good, I mean, he doesn't know this really, but he's so good that we forgot that he's a first-time director, and we all got lazy with him, and we kind of left him in the ditch a little bit, and we had to remind ourselves, "S--t, David. We should be here for David, because he's really a first-time director." But he had the quality of such confidence in knowing what he wanted to do one step at a time. ... And I asked him at the end of filming, I was like, "So, dude, you've read a lot of books, right? Directing and all that?" And he's like, "No." And I said, "So, what, are you just acting like you know what you're doing?" He's like, "Yeah." But I'm like, "It's so working." At the end of the day, maybe that's what you need. He doesn't really realize it, but he actually has [it], to the point where the crew is coming up to me, right? And they're pressuring me to suggest that David gets another episode or two this year and [that] he be put into the time when we're really tired so that we can have a strong director and we don't have to stress out more than we need to.


Do you want to direct?

Marsters: I'm more interested in producing, frankly. As I see how things work in television specifically, I think the things that interest me as far as larger arcs of characters, as far as finding larger components to put to each other, as far as deciding what the story is that we're going to tell and how we tell it, I'm kind of leaning towards wanting to do that and hire a director.


Talk about working with Charisma again.

Marsters: She's wonderful, man. She's wonderful. I was supposed to be the new Cordelia on Buffy, and it didn't really work out that well, because I was a vampire, and I kept lighting on fire when I tried to get into the house. So, yeah, watching Cordy, watching Charisma at work, is like, "Oh, that's what they wanted. The master's at work. I see." She's fabulous. She looks great. ... She kicks butt with a sword, too. That was this morning.


Alexis Denisof, your character, Wesley, joined the show in the middle of season one. Did you know you'd be here for the 100th episode?

Denisof: I never knew if he was going to stick around. So the job for me was to just try and make it as interesting and irritating as possible a character and hope that they'd find something for him to do the following week. And fortunately they are still doing that as we stand here. I don't know how many episodes that character's been around.


Are you prepared to do Angel for another three, four, five years?

Denisof: I think we're just getting warmed up. Why, have you heard we've been picked up for three years?


I don't know. What have you heard?

Denisof: Sadly, nothing. I mean, jeez, they really keep us dangling. I wouldn't know.


Would you say your character has experienced the most change on the show?

Denisof: Oh, boy. The most? I don't know if I could say the most, but it's certainly been a great deal of change. I would agree with that.


Do you like the direction they've taken him so far?

Denisof: I really do. It's a pleasure for an actor to have the chance to spend this amount of time with a character and be given the opportunity to evolve the character like we have over the years. So I'm definitely fortunate to have had that chance. Joss and the writers have always been coming up with great ideas and new directions for the character every season. And my job is just to take that as far as I can and make it as believable as I can and see where that leads us. We didn't really know where we were going when Wesley joined the show, but we knew that he needed to change a lot and was going to change a lot. But could I have told you then that he'd have his throat slit and kidnap a child and have an affair with the enemy and ... shoot his father, so many amazing things? I definitely wouldn't have been able to tell you that. It's been an awful lot of fun. In a way, each time we reach a plateau, a new level of the character, I feel like this is the starting point. Now we've got where I can start with this guy. So that's a good sign to me. That means we've got a lot of stories to tell and a lot of places we could take him.


Christian Kane, it's a surprise to see you on the show again.

Kane: I like it.


What's going on? Why are you back?

Kane: Well, I don't even know that. I'm not even sure that Joss knows. And also I really can't say where things are going. But, A, because I don't know, and B, it wouldn't be right, because Joss would probably kill me. But just, it was really nice to come back. ... The way we did it was we kept it really secretive and stuff. And I think some stuff leaked out that I was coming back in episode 10, or something like that, but no one had any idea that I going to be in episode eight.

That was the great thing about the very last scene in that episode. And Joss had the idea of not putting my name on it, no credit, no nothing, and just like just bringing it in. It was really fun. It was really fun. I just went to London and talked to some of the great, great fans that we've got out there and supposedly I hear like, I guess five minutes after the show aired, like six message boards crashed or something. Anytime I can do that and cause havoc, that's just my style.


Are you the Big Bad for this season?

Kane: I'm always the Big Bad. Well, Spike and Angel are good now. They gotta have somebody come in and be evil. So that, you know, I have no problem doing it.


What was it like coming back to the set?

Kane: You know, it was little weird. I felt really comfortable in this character's ... skin, because it's me. Joss wrote the character, but I brought a lot to it. But it was very weird, because the first day back, David Boreanaz is directing me. So that was kind of cool, and it was just, it was a little awkward, because he's a little bit different. There's a lot of the same qualities, but he's a little bit different. He's a little bit more on another level now. So it was fun, I'll tell you that.


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Krista Niittymäki | 27 Jan 2004 15:09
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Interview with Joss Whedon

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Interview with Joss Whedon
 
By Kathie Huddleston
 
Despite the fact that Fox canceled his series Firefly over a year ago, Joss Whedon is not even close to letting go of his creation. With thoughts of Firefly stories dancing in his head, the creator of the Buffy franchise has plans that just might keep the fledgling series around for a long, long time in one way or another. However, until Whedon's ideas can spring forth, the series' fans can explore all things Firefly with the new DVD set, which will be available in early December.
 
The four-disc set offers all the episodes, including the three completed episodes that never made it on air. Chock full of commentary from Whedon and other Firefly notables, a few very special extras provide some insights into the series, including a gag reel and Joss' tour of the set.
 
Whedon chatted with Science Fiction Weekly about the DVD, Firefly's cancellation, and why people should never, ever listen to the DVD extra that features his rendition of the Firefly theme song.
 
TELL ME ABOUT THE FIREFLY DVD. WHAT'S ON IT?
Whedon: TV shows. I think some I Dream of Jeannies and Match Games [laughs]. What we have is basically the entire history of Firefly so far. But actually that involves all of the episodes being in the right order, widescreen, which is how we shot them—although that's not how they were aired. And with three episodes that were never aired, in addition to all the others. Never aired in this country, I should say.
 
WHAT CAN WE LOOK FORWARD TO WITH THE NEW EPISODES?
Whedon: Well, the usual hijacks. There are three of them. One brings back the character of Saffron we had in "Our Mrs. Reynolds," who we loved very much, for a caper episode. One is kind of a dark episode from Mal and Zoe's war days. And one of the episodes is them defending a whorehouse. And you can never have enough episodes about people defending a whorehouse.
 
WHAT'S GOING TO SURPRISE US IN THESE EPISODES?
Whedon: All I can say is, hopefully everything. The show was always built to try and surprise, to try and let people think they know where they are going and then head in the opposite direction. That's kind of my theory of TV. They fit in the canon, and one of them has a very important plot point that was never seen. But apart from that they are just more of Firefly.
 
WHAT EXTRAS ARE ON THE DVDS?
Whedon: Extras? You know, the usual suspects in terms of commentary from me and Tim [Minear] and Nathan [Fillion], a few of the actors on different episodes and different people. Writers and the wardrobe person, I think [laughs]. And a lot of different perspectives. The gag reel, which is one of those rare gag reels where people are actually having fun and not just messing up their lines. And they actually made a little documentary piece about the show and interviewed everybody for it, which is really nice. There's some crazy person singing the theme song, which, I can't stress enough, people should just avoid that particular extra. It was never meant to be heard by anybody.
 
WHO WOULD THAT CRAZY PERSON BE?
Whedon: Yeah, that'd be me. I threw it down. I was like, OK, I'll just throw it down so they know the chords and then we'll get some great old blues singer to sing it and it will be cool. And they were like, "Let's put it on the DVD." And I was like, "OK." And then I listened to it. I was like, "I must die now [laughs]." I can't stress this enough—not a singer.
 
AND NOW IT WILL LIVE ON FOREVER.
Whedon: Yeah, I know it [laughs]. But the embarrassment is outweighed by the fact that I love this show as hard as anything I've loved, and to have it exist on the DVD shelf and in perpetuity is such a great thing for me.
 
THE DVD SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING THE FANS HAVE REALLY BEEN WAITING FOR.
Whedon: Right away the DVD department came and said, "Oh, we're putting this out." Which was great vindication. And I'm excited, because I haven't seen the thing in a while and I'm like, "Oh, it's going to be all in a package with extras." Even though I've actually seen or created most of the extras, and I'm terrified of one of them, I'm just excited to see it out there. To know it exists, that it's on the shelves. And then hopefully leaving the shelves [laughs].
 
FIREFLY HAS ONLY AIRED 11 EPISODES. WERE YOU SURPRISED AT THE RESPONSE FROM THE FANS?
Whedon: I have a theory about that.
 
WHAT'S THE THEORY?
Whedon: It was excellent [laughs]. That's my theory. And I think it was also the kind of TV I always strive, and don't always succeed but always strive, to make. Which is the kind of TV that basically grabs you by the gut, that makes you fall in love with the characters instantly, or at worst gradually. And to the point where their lives are incorporated into your own. I know that's what we did with Buffy, and more and more I feel that's what we did with Firefly. If you're not doing that, what are you doing [laughs]?
 
A LOT OF TV-TYPE PEOPLE DO OTHER THINGS.
Whedon: I realize that other people do other things that they're very good at. People love them. I'm not going to make a procedural because, quite frankly, I don't know anything about any procedures. I think a procedural about joke-telling would be weird and boring. But I like to make the kind of TV that people need. And that generally ends up meaning cult TV. Every now and then people create something that has a genre twist to it that becomes a mainstream hit. I don't think I'm that guy, but that's OK by me.
 
THE SUMMER BEFORE FIREFLY AIRED, YOU AND I TALKED ABOUT THE SHOW. YOU TOLD ME THAT FOX ORIGINALLY LOVED THE INITIAL TWO-HOUR MOVIE AND THEN THEY DECIDED THAT THEY WANTED TO START IN A DIFFERENT PLACE WITH A ONE-HOUR STANDALONE EPISODE. AND YOU SAID, "AND I THINK THEY'RE NOT WRONG." HOWEVER, MY OPINION AS A VIEWER WAS THAT THEY WERE WRONG AND THAT THE ORIGINAL TWO-HOUR MOVIE, "SERENITY," SHOULD HAVE AIRED FIRST.
 
Whedon: They were so wrong that we may have to create a new word that means wronger. And the fact that they got me to doubt myself in that way and the work makes me a little sad. But you know, I'd been pounded on for months. And I had people around me going, "No, [what they want is not] the way to tell a story. This is exciting. This involves you in the characters." And I was like, "What if it's dull? What if they're right?" Ultimately, you don't want to come in saying, "Check out my show. It will be incoherent." You want to work with the people who are trying to sell the show. And if there had been any people trying to sell the show, I would have.
 
You know, I understand why they thought they had to do what they had to do. The new word for wrong that we're going to come up with -- they were glemphy. They were just completely glemphy. It really has to do more with the fact that they just had no use for the show. They didn't want the show. They didn't get the show. It was just never something that they wanted in their lives. And unfortunately they were unable to either communicate or realize that. And I say unfortunately. I guess fortunately because it lived a short life, but it's one of the happiest experiences I've ever had making something.
 
REALLY?
Whedon: Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah.
 
EVEN THOUGH IT DIDN'T SEEM TO SHOW UP IN THE RATINGS, PEOPLE DID WATCH AND LOVE THIS SHOW. A LOT OF PEOPLE FOUGHT HARD TO KEEP IT ALIVE.
 
Whedon: Yes, they really did. The fans, they came through in a huge way. They've always been so supportive. And when I'm like, "It ain't nothin'. It's all over. It means nothing." And then I see what they have to say about it and it's very nice. And I go, "That's right. I'm one of them. A fan." [Laughs.]
 
WHEN THE SHOW BASICALLY GOT NO SUPPORT FROM THE NETWORK AND THEN WAS CANCELED, THAT MUST HAVE BEEN A TREMENDOUSLY DIFFICULT EXPERIENCE.
Whedon: It was the best/worst year of my life. It was raining fire and I was in this nice little cave having a lovely meal with all these wonderful people, and every now and then I'd go outside and fire would rain down on me, from the very start, from script stage. In terms of dealing with the network it was just gut-wrenchingly difficult, and all a function of the fact that they didn't want me to make this show. So there was just no winning. I would go to meetings, I would talk to my agent, I would deal with executives, and I would be ulcerously unhappy. And then I would go on set and forget that any of it ever happened, because it was the happiest set and, quite frankly, the happiest place I've ever been.
 
THE THREE EPISODES, WHY DID THEY NEVER AIR THOSE?
Whedon: You know, they said they were going to air them in the summer. I don't think they really saw the percentage in it. And then perhaps when the DVD people said, "We're going to do it," it was more advantageous to be able to say never, unaired—and we never aired. So they had a good mystique to them. That's my theory. Although if the network had some use for them, I don't know if they would have rolled over the DVD people, but that's my guess.
 
WE FANS, OF COURSE, ARE HOPING FIREFLY GOES INTO MOVIES. HOWEVER, I THINK THESE CHARACTERS ARE SO STRONG THEY GOING TO LIVE ON IN OUR HEARTS AND MINDS FOR A LONG TIME REGARDLESS.

Whedon: I think so, too. I mean, I think about all sorts of things—movies, books, comic books. Everything. I like to think where I could use the actors. You know, it would be very fun to write a Firefly book, but then where would Nathan [Fillion] go? He wouldn't be in it. It would just be pages that talked like him. The actors too exist, very fully already, which is nice. But I still have plans for them.

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Krista Niittymäki | 17 Dec 2003 20:20
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A Lord of the Rings and Buffy the Vampire Slayer Musical Adventure

 
 
http://omwh.gloria-mundi.net/index.html

Original Lyrics by Joss Whedon
Lyrics by Jessica and Chris

Under Your Spell/Standing (reprise), coming Sunday the 21st!

Going Through the Motions In which Bilbo prepares for a long expected party.
I've Got a Theory At the council of Elrond.
The Mustard Gandalf on the bridge of Khazad-Dum.
Under Your Spell As the fellowship stops above Rauros Falls Boromir is tempted by the Ring.
I'll Never Tell Gimli and Legolas reconsider how they feel about each other.
The Parking Ticket The last surviving Orc at Helm's Deep sings.
Rest In Peace Sauruman is confronted at Orthanc.
Dawn's Lament Meanwhile, back in the Shire . . . .
What You Feel The Lord of the Nazgul confronts the Rohirrim at the Battle of the Pelennor Fields.
Standing Sam mourns the fall of his master at Cirith Ungol.
Under Your Spell / Standing
reprise Frodo and Sam cross Mordor.
Walk Through the Fire The army of men approaches the Black Gate as Frodo climbs Mount Doom.
Something to Sing About Eowyn laments the passing of glory in the Houses of Healing.
What You Feel
reprise Sauron is defeated.
Where Do We Go From Here? The final parting of the fellowship at the Grey Havens.
We are doing a performance of these songs for the New York City Return of the King Line Party.

Original Music and Lyrics by Joss Whedon
Original Arrangement by Christopher Beck & Jesse Tobias
Lyrics by Jessica and Chris
Arranged by Isaac Everett
Vocals by Anthony, Faith, and Shawn
Advertising Cards by Robert Scott

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Krista Niittymäki | 17 Dec 2003 12:29
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The very BEST of Buffy voted by the fans, for the fans on DVD!


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Official Announcements from the PR companies

2003-12-16 18:46:02

The very BEST of Buffy voted by the fans, for the fans on DVD!


Fans had better get ready to enjoy the most 'kick-ass' Buffy episodes EVER! For the first time the UK, a Buffy DVD has been created by the public from an online survey. The unique special edition DVD will be released on 1st March 2004 from Twentieth Century Fox Home Entertainment.

Over 1.2 million fans visited an online survey where they were asked to vote for their favourite Buffy The Vampire Slayer episode. To celebrate the end of the hit television series, the four most popular will appear together on The Best Of Buffy DVD.

The survey, set up by Greenroom Digital, was live on both Freeserve and the Fox TV DVD website (www.foxtvdvd.co.uk), throughout September and October 2003.

Over 100 Buffy episodes received votes, but top of the bill came Hush, The Gift, Becoming Part I and Graduation Day Part II. In addition to the four episodes the DVD boasts some extra special value-added material, including a preview freaturette from the forthcoming Buffy Season 7 DVD collection.

The Best of Buffy votes spanned over all seven seasons. Sarah Michelle Gellar stars as Buffy Summers with both old and new characters including Angel (David Boreanaz), Oz (Seth Green), Willow (Alyson Hannigan) and Faith (Eliza Dishku). The story lines include flashbacks to Angelus siring Drusilla, Kendra's nail biting death, Buffy and Riley's kiss, and the fateful episode when Buffy dies!

The DVD is a tribute to Joss Whedon and the show's loyal supporters. The Best of Buffy is the only DVD of its kind and is an essential addition to any DVD collection.

EPISODES

Becoming, Part One (Season 2)"

Angel prepares a ritual to awaken a demon that will suck the world into hell; Buffy prepares to kill him, but is torn when Willow discovers the ritual that could restore Angel's soul.

Graduation Day, Part Two (Season 3)

As the hours tick away to graduation, the impending doom of the Mayor's ascension hangs heavy with the gang. With Angel near death, Buffy must risk her own life in an effort to save his.

Hush (Season 4)

After the residents of Sunnydale lose the power of speech, Buffy battles strangely silent assailants alongside an incredulous Riley.

The Gift (Season 5)

Buffy must square off against a true god when Glory prepares to use Dawn to break down the walls between the dimensions and unleash Hell on Earth.

PRODUCT DETAILS

Title: The Best Of Buffy DVD
Date of Release: 1st March 2004
Price: S12.99 (?)
Running Time: 180 mins approx
Certificate: 15
Subtitles : English for the hard of hearing Danish, Finnish, Norwegian, Swedish
Original Aspect Ratio: (16X9) 1.78:1
Sound & Picture Quality: Dolby surround 2.0


Make way for buffy's fabulous four! The slayer collection has arrived on dvd!

They're bad, they're sassy and they fight like demons! Four of Buffy's gang each has their best episodes ever out to buy on DVD (RRP: S12.99) as part of THE SLAYER COLLECTION from Twentieth Century Fox Home Entertainment on 1st March 2004.

Meet Spike (James Masters), the baddest vampire in Sunnydale; Faith (Eliza Disku), the sexiest slayer since Buffy herself; Angel (David Boreanaz), the most gorgeous vamp on the block; and finally there's Willow (Alyson Hannigan), the world's coolest witch!

These four separate DVDs are each dedicated to one member of the Slayer cast and contain four of their very best episodes. Get ready for your favourite moments and heart-rendering scenes between the Buffy girls and boys in the Angel and Spike collections. These include Angel and Buffy's steamy first kiss and Spike and Drusilla's heartbreaking split after she leaves him alone in Sunnydale.

Willow's episodes take us way back to the beginning when a young, geeky Willow was in love with the rather strange Oz! Later episodes reveal the quirky witch's other side and her relationship with the beautiful Tara. Then there's the slayer in the black rubber suit and high heels... Faith, wreaking her own havoc in four episodes in this fangtastic collection on DVD!

Each Slayer Collection DVD has extra special value-added material to celebrate that particular Buffy character, including a 15 minute profile featurette and a Buffy / Angel trailer.

Take your favourite Buffy character home from The Slayer Collection, a must-buy for any Buffy fan! The four DVDs not only allow fans to relive their favourite moments with the Scooby gang, but the focus on each character highlights their individual stories and each player's place in the overall Joss Whedon 'Buffy mythology'.

PRODUCT DETAILS

Date of Release: 1st March 2004
Price: S12.99 (?)
Running Time: 180 mins approx
Certificate: 15
Subtitles: English for the hard of hearing Danish, Finnish, Norwegian, Swedish
Original Aspect Ratio: (16X9) 1.78:1
Sound & Picture Quality: Dolby surround 2.0


THE SLAYER COLLECTION - SPIKE DVD 


EPISODES

School Hard Spike and Drusilla come to town, and Spike invades Parent-Teacher night.

Lie to me Buffy's childhood crush comes to town, but he's not looking to reminisce - he's looking for immortality as a vampire.

Lovers Walk A broken-hearted Spike returns without Drusilla; relationships are torn apart due to a liaison between two members of the gang.

Fool For Love When Buffy forces Spike to recount how he was able to kill two Slayers, his flashbacks reveal his first meeting with Drusilla.

EXTRAS
Spike profile featurette - 15 minutes
Buffy / Angel Trailer


THE SLAYER COLLECTION - FAITH

 
EPISODES

Bad Girls Buffy's new Watcher comes to town; Faith lures Buffy into her world of reckless abandon, with fatal results.

Consequences Buffy struggles with Faith's lack of remorse over last week's incidents; Faith initiates an alliance with the dark side.

Graduation - Part 1 While the Mayor prepares for his diabolical transformation on graduation day, Buffy battles Faith to save Angel's life.

Who Are You While Buffy is mistakenly kidnapped by the Watcher's Council, Faith wreaks havoc in Buffy's life.

EXTRAS
Faith profile featurette - 15 minutes
Buffy / Angel Trailer

THE SLAYER COLLECTION - ANGEL DVD

 
EPISODES

Angel Buffy and Angel share their first kiss, and she finds out who he really is.

Innocence Angel loses his soul and his demon self takes over; Buffy must deal with him and stop the Judge.

I Only Have Eyes For You The tortured ghost of a former student haunts Sunnydale High School, re-enacting the murder/suicide he committed.

Amends At Christmas-time, evil haunts Angel, torturing him with visions of his murderous past and urging him to kill Buffy.

EXTRAS
Angel profile featurette - 15 minutes
Buffy / Angel Trailer


THE SLAYER COLLECTION - WILLOW DVD 


EPISODES


Phases The gang tries to save a werewolf from a poacher; Oz makes the startling discovery that he is the werewolf in question.

Doppelgangland Anya wreaks havoc again when a spell goes awry, bringing Willow's vampire doppelganger into the Buffy-verse.

Wild At Heart Oz and Willow's relationship is up in arms when Oz is powerfully drawn to a female werewolf.

New Moon Rising Oz returns to Sunnydale and is captured by the Initiative during a full moon; a conflicted Willow tells Buffy about her new relationship with Tara.

EXTRAS
Willow profile featurette - 15 minutes
Buffy / Angel Trailer



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Krista Niittymäki | 16 Dec 2003 19:56
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Promo-Pic of Aly!

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http://www.slayerverse.de/tanet/net_buffy_us/?navi=news.php&id=3942
A promotional image of Alyson that was planned for season 7 of Buffy but was newly released in high res.


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Krista Niittymäki | 15 Dec 2003 00:09
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Fw: {+Bloody_Sunshine+} Buffy Quiz

 
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Alicia at JossBtVS made a Buffy quiz at  http://www.coolquiz.com/myquiz/myquiz.asp?QuizNum=1293724097 
 
 


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Krista Niittymäki | 11 Dec 2003 11:22
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Slayerverse Updates

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Michelle HQ

HQ pics from VH1's Big in 2003
http://www.slayerverse.de/tanet/net_buffy_us/?navi=news.php&id=3853  


Aly Backstage!
We have some wonderful and rare backstage photos of our sweet Alyson Hannigan. Enjoy them ;-)
http://www.slayerverse.de/tanet/net_buffy_us/?navi=news.php&id=3859  

Download: Sarah on E!News and Extra!

Sarah was featured on both shows concerning her appearance on the Divine Style Awards. We have the clip.
http://www.slayerverse.de/tanet/net_buffy_us/?navi=news.php&id=3862 

Willow Music Video

http://www.slayerverse.de/tanet/net_buffy_us/?navi=news.php&id=3868

 

 



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Krista Niittymäki | 11 Dec 2003 01:18
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Always alone, never without you 6/?

Title: Always alone, never without you 6/?

Author: Malicia Nocturna (Krista)

Rating: from G to NC-17, varies from chapter to chapter

Disclaimer: Characters from Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel The Series belong to Joss Whedon etc… the story is mine.

Feedback: yes please :]

Distribution: Sure, ask first

Pairings: B/A, B/S, Spike/Drusilla, Spike/Darla, X/A, W/O, Joyce/Giles possibly others… I have to see where this story is taking me ;)

Timing: AU, Buffy is a college student, she is living at home with her mom and sister Dawn. Willow is her best friend, Angel is Buffy’s long-term boyfriend. Everyone is human.

Summary: Angel and Buffy have been together for ages. Angel is working in a law firm called Wolfram and Hart, Buffy is a college student. At one night their friend Cordelia is having a party and Buffy meets an interesting guy there.

 

Chapter 6

 

Spike left with Drusilla and Buffy stood outside watching them leave.

It has become a habit now, walking away, watching the other one walking away…

Someone was always leaving.

It was painful to watch him put his arm around Drusilla’s slim figure. Buffy could understand why he was in love with Drusilla. They had so much in common. They both had this demonic spark in their eyes. They both fit perfectly into the night.

Buffy loved the night but also the sunlight. Spike belonged to the darkness, she was somewhere in between. Never really fitting.

 

Angel walked to Buffy. He was a holding a bottle of beer, he had actually had several beers with Darla.

She was fun to talk to. Spending time with Darla had made him forget his worries and doubts. Not to mention her beauty… She wasn’t a little girl anymore, she was a beautiful woman. Angel had felt good and relaxed and then he had seen something…

Angel wanted to scream. He had seen Spike and Buffy holding hands, spending time together behind his back AGAIN.

He tried to remain calm and sensible, but he was ready to explode.

“Can I have an explanation?” he asked.

“No,” Buffy replied and looked away.

“Why… Why SPIKE?” Angel tried not to yell.

“I don’t know,” Buffy said and sighed. Then she left him standing there and walked away.

 

She was too tired and confused to even think of what Angel would do now.

Maybe he would go to Darla, maybe she wanted to comfort him, take care of him, make him feel better…

Damned Darla.

What was about her that made all the men crazy? They acted like idiots, drooling all over her, following her around like brain dead puppies…

 

She walked for hours, passed quiet alleys of Sunnydale, walked by the cemeteries and finally ended up to Revello Drive.

A familiar figure was standing in front of her house, staring at her window. He was smoking a cigarette.

“Hey Spike,” Buffy said quietly.

“Hey Miss Moonlight, what are you doing outside? I thought you were sleeping already,” Spike said and gave Buffy a worried look.

“I am having troubles with Angel again. I needed some time to calm down and think,” Buffy replied.

“What the hell are you doing here in the middle of the night?”

“I was just thinking about you and couldn’t sleep,” Spike said and smiled.

His smile was seductive and Buffy was ready to jump into his arms.

 

Suddenly she remembered something Angel had told her.

“Are you sleeping with Darla?” she asked with a harsh voice.

Spike was shocked.
That certainly wasn’t the kind of question he had been expecting to hear. He had no idea what to say. How did Buffy know?

Spike didn’t want to lie to her, so all he could do was tell the truth.

“Yes,” he whispered and avoided her gaze.

“Oh god,” Buffy said and closed her eyes.

This was like a nightmare. Darla was everywhere. Angel kept her company all night, Spike was sleeping with her.

“What about Drusilla? Don’t tell me you are having threesome sessions,” she said sarcastically. It was meant to be a joke but when she saw the look on his face she wished she could take it back.

“Bloody hell,” Spike said mostly to himself and tried to grab Buffy’s arm.

“Don’t touch me, pervert,” Buffy spat and startled away from him.

“Buffy, it was before I met you,” Spike said with a gentle voice.

Buffy just shook her head. She wasn’t sure what she wanted Spike to say. His sex-life wasn’t her business at all, but somehow it was horrible enough to think about him and Drusilla, making love… If that’s what it was. But it was unbearable to imagine him, Drusilla AND Darla together.

“If you want I’ll never lay a finger on Darla again,” he said, “Buffy, look at me.”
Buffy turned to Spike and he saw tears in her eyes.

“You can do what ever you want, I don’t care,” her voice was grim.

“I am going to bed now, goodnight.” She turned to leave but Spike stopped her.

“I understand if you don’t want to see me ever again,” he said quietly, “but I want to keep seeing you. I’m sorry for all the trouble have I caused.”

Buffy sighed.

“It’s not your fault, this is my mess, my problem,” she sounded tired.

“No Buffy, we are in this together. I’ve used to be alone and for the first time in my life I have found someone …someone I really care about. When I’m with you I don’t feel lonely. You take my sadness away,” he whispered and touched Buffy’s cheek with his fingers.

Buffy didn’t push him away. His fingertips burned her skin. She felt cold and Spike’s touch made her warmer. She wanted to give in to his touch, she wanted him to make her happy again. She stepped closer to him, felt his warm breath on her face…. She wanted to dive into the sweet oblivion.

Then she remembered Darla and turned away from Spike again.

“I have to go,” she said and was about to leave when Spike put something into her hand. It was a piece of paper.

“I wrote it for you,” he said. Then he left.

“Goodnight Miss Moonlight,” he said quietly and wasn’t sure if Buffy had heard him.

 

Buffy sat on her bed, holding the piece of paper in her hand. She leaned to her bedside table and switched on the light. She stared at the paper for a long time before she finally started to read what was written in it.

 

“I’m alone in the darkness of this world,

 in the coldness of this world,

I walk alone with faltering steps,

I’m always alone

 

The darkness devours me,

holds me, comforts me, scares me,

because I have been alone,

always alone

 

Once I saw a true beauty in the night

fair and pale,

and I wasn’t alone, I wasn’t afraid

I was complete

 

Now I want to live

near her, with her, close to her

never without her

I am bound to her

 

Maybe I am still alone,

always alone,

but she makes me complete

she makes me alive

 

and I can’t live without her,

never without her

 

Never without you.”

 

Tears were streaming down Buffy’s cheeks. Spike wrote a poem to HER.

She read it over and over again and finally she stood up and walked to a mirror.

She stared at her reflection; her hair was messy, her make-up was ruined but her eyes were burning.

Then she finally admitted it.

“I am in love with Spike,” she said to her reflection, “and he can never know.”

 

TBC

 



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Krista Niittymäki | 5 Dec 2003 12:54
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"Angel" Turns 100!

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The cast and crew celebrated the 100th episode at Paramount Studios in Hollywood on December 4th


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Krista Niittymäki | 2 Dec 2003 02:45
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Fic: His Grave 1/1

Title: His grave

Author: Malicia Nocturna

Rating: I’m not sure… PG-13

Disclaimer: Characters from Buffy the Vampire Slayer belong to Joss Whedon etc… the story is mine.

Pairings: B/S sort of

Feedback: yes please :]

Distribution: Sure, ask first

Timing: After/In the end of Chosen

Spoilers: If you haven’t seen the episode Chosen then don’t read this fic.

Summary: Buffy’s POV, dark thoughts…

 

I sit on a bench in this crappy bus. We have stopped here, right next to the crater.

I don’t look back.

I can’t.
The hole in the ground is a grave and I have never liked looking into open graves.

So many of us died.

I didn’t, but I’ve died twice before.

It wasn’t my time today. Will there ever be my time?

 

I look at Faith, how she is holding hands with principal Wood.

Robin.

They look so good together. Faith smiles at him and gives him a kiss.

They don’t mourn the ones that fell.

Maybe it’s the arrogance that keeps them together. Maybe they are in love.

I don’t care. Faith has never known true love like I have. I hope Robin makes her happy.

Does she deserve happiness?

At least she holds on to the man who cares for her.

She has the chance of happiness.

I had my chance too. I realized it too late.

 

Faith is beautiful. She is like a sculpture or a painting. She is the dark one, the dark side of me.

Maybe I should have been darker…. If I had fought harder, been harder, would the Potentials be alive now?

Would he be alive now?

 

When Faith fights she dances. I envy her smooth movements and endless desire to win, to be the best. Maybe she should have taken my position years ago.

 

I feel responsible for everything that happened to her. But I can’t help her anymore.

Somehow I feel sorry for her.

I wish I could love her like a sister.

But the time for those feelings is long gone.

 

I let my eyes wander to Dawn. She sits quietly, her slim body is covered with bruises.

Sometimes I feel like I’ve betrayed her. I wish I could say something to comfort her but I can’t.

There is a dark hole inside my soul and it prevents me from speaking.

 

Xander is looking at me, trying to make an eye contact with me. I don’t want to look at him, I don’t see him as my friend anymore, he is just one of my many failures. I have tried so hard to push my guilt away but it’s overwhelming. He lost his eye because of me. And he lost the love of his life because of me. Because of my mistakes and lack of strength. I know he blames me, but he loves me too much to show it. I can’t look at him.

 

Feels like they all are expecting me to say something. They are hurt, tired, afraid.

They need something to hold on to, comforting words, warmth.

I can’t give them anything anymore.

I buried my inner fire with him.

 

I step out of the bus.  I try to avoid looking at it, the grave, but my feet are dragging me towards it.

I stand on the edge of the crater and spread my arms. I close my eyes and for a moment I believe I can fly.

 

I think about what it would be like to lean forward and let myself fall. This hole in the ground would become my grave too, I could share it with the one I love. Maybe I could finally rest.

I could easily lean forward until my feet wouldn’t touch the ground anymore. I could let the crater suck me in, smash me to the ground and take my life.

My soul would find his soul and we could spend the eternity together somewhere far away from this world.

 

The sun is burning me, it’s too hot. I have lived in the shadows for so long that I don’t tolerate the direct sunlight anymore. I am a part of the darkness. All the things that I’ve loved have been more or less directly connected to the darkness; Slaying, Angel, my friends, Giles and his mysterious past, Spike…

I open my eyes and fight back the tears.

Spike.

This is his grave, this hole in the ground, this shattered memory of my home.

This reminder of my biggest battle.

I have made many mistakes, but leaving him there was the worst. I’m sure I could have done something to save him. Now I am just the Slayer that failed.

I can’t see this as a victory when the one that I love is dead.

The First Evil is gone and I should be too. I have lived longer than any other Slayer before me, I have already died twice, I have known the death and yet I live.

I should be there on the bottom of the crater. I should have helped Spike out and died instead of him. At least he would have known that I love him truly.

 

The others have followed me, they are all standing on the edge of the crater, staring straight at the grave. Some of them are holding hands. Some of them are standing alone.

I know that for the rest of my life I will be standing alone.

The one who I wanted to stand here with is gone.

 

“What did this?” Giles asks.

“Spike did,” I reply quietly.

Giles looks surprised.  He has never believed in Spike, maybe he saw some potential but he didn’t trust Spike.

“He saved us,” Giles says. His voice is full of admiration. It’s too late now, he should have admired him earlier, helped him, cared for him. Maybe Spike would have survived with the help of my Watcher. I should have done something to make them trust each other.

It all comes down to this; I blame myself.

 

Giles turns to face the others.

“Spike saved us,” he says quietly. I can see them nodding and murmuring to each other.

“Spike is a hero,” Willow declares and smiles.
How can she smile on a moment like this?

I wonder if I will be able to smile ever again.

Giles is smiling too.

“Yes, Spike is a hero,” he says.

“And I love him,” I say quietly but loud enough. They heard what I said.

I can see shock in their faces. Dawn is the only one who doesn’t look confused.

I clear my throat and look at all of them in the eyes. I can see disbelief and confusion, shock and even sadness.

Are they sad because I love a vampire and not a human or because the vampire I love is dead?
”I love him,” I say with a clear and loud voice, I emphasize every word to make sure that they will never forget what I say.

I turn back to the crater, half expecting Spike to jump up from there.

But he won’t. He won’t appear ever again.

“I love you,” I whisper to the crater, hoping him to hear me, and close my eyes again.

I spread my arms wide open, I feel a small breeze on my hair and hope it to be a message from Spike. I lean forward, dangerously, ready to jump and fall.

My heart is beating faster than ever before and my soul is yearning for the final peace.

 

But I don’t jump because Spike would want me to live.



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